My very own life...*

Wednesday, October 01, 2008

NSF died

When another NSF died..
It made the whole Singapore think..
Once again..
Is military training really safe..
Doubts came in..
Again..
May you rest in peace.. ='[
To my friend.. ='[

I'm jus lost confused !!!
4:54 PM

Sunday, August 31, 2008

Airborne

I hope i can do airborne now..
As i can jump without any wry..
='[

Seriously and deeply in love wif u

I'm jus lost confused !!!
7:05 PM

FOR THE GAL I LOVE

Written for the GAL I LOVE

Please dare to love me if you really do

I might be a little shy
I might be a little quiet

But
Believe in me
I can change
I just need a little more time

I do understand
How much you care about your family
How much pressure you got from them
How much you being pulled down by this

But
Believe in us
We can change your family point of view in relationship
We just have to give them confident in us

I do understand
How much pressure you had from school
How much pressure you had from CCA
How much pressure you had from friends

But
Believe in me
Thou I will only be out on weekends
My heart and soul will always be there
Always be there
Just for you

I really love you
Seriously and deeply in love with you =[
Please
Life without you
Will never be the same =’[

If anyone got to ask me why
Why I love you
I would say
I love you because
I’m infatuated with you
Love is unreasonable
Love doesn’t need a reason
I’m just deeply in love with you
My gal =’[

Seriously and deeply in love wif u<3

I'm jus lost confused !!!
5:17 PM

ONCE AGAIN

Today is the day my tear fall for you once again..
Life being so meaningless to me once again..

Seriously and deeply in love wif u

I'm jus lost confused !!!
12:22 AM

Saturday, August 23, 2008

Feeling

Listening to 'tong hua' made my heart melt..
I js donno why..
After the 8days of fieldcamp..
I feel tt things are diff..
Mayb coz 3 of my detachment-mates have prb in their relationship after the fieldcamp..
Which made me paranoid..
Or thrs really sth diff.?
The song js totally describe how i'm feeling nw..

I js hope to see u..
Really hope to see u..
Time doesnt matter..
A min will do too..
But, i don think u knw..

Seriously and deeply in love wif u

I'm jus lost confused !!!
11:49 AM

Sunday, August 10, 2008

My tears failed on me..
I js cant control it..

I'm jus lost confused !!!
8:02 PM

Missing u

I'm missin u lots.. =[
Hope tt i will be able to see u.. =[
A min will do too..
But, i knw its kinda impossible.. =[

Wan you to knw tt..
I'm seriously and deeply in love wif u..

I'm jus lost confused !!!
6:04 PM

Sunday, June 29, 2008

Hope

As long as you are happy..
I will be happy..
Will i.? ='[

CRYING TO BED ='[

I'm jus lost confused !!!
4:03 AM

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Put it away

It hurt again whn u told me to put it away.. ='[

I'm jus lost confused !!!
3:00 PM

Monday, May 12, 2008

Nv like the past

It jus hurt me even more..
Whn u told me tt we can nv be like the past..
='[

I'm jus lost confused !!!
3:36 PM

Sry..

I'm sry..
I shouldnt have asked so much..
Thou u said u r nt angry..
But, i believe u r disappointed..
Disappointed in me..
I'm sry..
Nw tt i knw the ans..
Ans to my qns..
The pain is unbearable..
I cant stand it..
Cant stand it anymore..
I cant control my tears..
It jus roll dwn my cheek..
I doubt u will ever get to see tis..
But, I jus wan u to knw..
To knw tt..
I love u..
Love u deeply..
No matter wat u say..
I will still wait for u..
Waiting for u..

Crying to bed everyday seems to be a rountine to me nwaday.. ='(

I'm jus lost confused !!!
11:56 AM

CPL LEE KAI XUN, ALVIN
Seriously and deeply in love wif u<3

19/07/1988
Cancer
Ex-YZPS, Ex-Deyian, Singapore Polytechnic
zhugekx@yahoo.com.sg

Joined DEYI NCC in 2001
Below are all the courses (I remember) I had attended since i join NCC:
-Alpha Camp in Amoy Quee 2001
-1st Camp Feast of NCC 2002
-DEYI NCC Leadership Camp 1st Intake [2002]
-Monfort Leadership Camp 2003
-PDS AI 2nd Intake 2003
-Specialist Course Phase1 2003
-Senior Specialist Course Phase2 2003
-Camp Pinnacle 2003
-DEYI NCC Leadership Camp 2nd Intake [2004]
-PDS AI 3rd Intake 2004
-2nd NCC-Burnei Oversea Jungle Training Cum Exchange Programme 2004
-48th CLT Intake
-Camp Feast Phase2 2005
-Specialist Course Phase2 2005
-DEYI NCC Leadership Camp 3rd Intake [2005]
-Senior Specialist Course Phase2 2005
-DEYI NCC Leadership Camp 4th Intake [2006]
-Specialist Course Phase3 2006
-Specialist Course Phase2 2006
-National Camp 2006
-Senior Specialist Course 2006
-Specialist Course Phase1 2007
-Specialist Course Phase3 2007
-Specialist Course Phase2 2007
-Senior Specialist Course 2007
-Camp Feast Phase2 2008
-Specialist Course Phase1 2008
-DEYI NCC Leadership Camp 5th Intake [2008]
-Specialist Course Phase2 2008
-Specialist Course Phase3 2008
-Central District

Joined Singapore Polytechnic Dragonboat team in 2005
-Sava Sprint International Men's Open (500m) - 2:17:05

Joined SAF for National Service on 11 July 2008
-Attended Commando Basic Military Training [CBMT] (11July2008 - 10September2008)
-Attended 56th Commando Small-Unit Leader Course [CSLC] (15September2008 - 28November2008)
-Attending 195th Basic Airborne Course [BAC] (3December2008 - Current)

Wats LOVE..? :'(